First Love

I Did Not Mean To Hurt You

“Hello … Natasha!” Lucy’s voice surprised me. Why ? She never comes so early like this morning. She usually comes a few minutes before the bell rings.
“Hi ! What’s wrong ? You don’t look your self today. Why did you come so early today ? “
“My Father gave me a lift. By the way, have you heard anyting about Rhavida?”
“What is the matter with her ?” I asked.
“Haven’t you heard ? Everyone at school has,”she repliced.
“What is it Would you tell me, please ? “ I begged her.
“OK. She is falling in love with Onew. Don’t you know ? She your classmate, isn’t she ?” as I know, she is a calm girl . But . . . how about Iwan’s response ?” I asked her.
“Wow . . . . . I don’t know. Please ask him your self. Onew and you belong to the same volleyball club, don’t you ? But I think he pays no special attention to her. Since . . . . . . he loves somebody else.” She replied.
“Who is she?” I asked .
“Well . . . . you’d better ask him yourself . The bell will be ringing soon,” she answered hurriedly and ran to her classroom.
Lucy is not my classmate. She is in the IPA (science) department while I am the language department.
The break finally ended. One by one, my friends entered the classroom. The teacher was absent and there was no special assignment.
“Khikie . . . Are you going to play volleyball this afternoon ?” Rhavida asked.
“Yes, what can I do for you?”
“I want to give this letter Onew. Will you help me give it to him?” Rhavida begged me.
“Yes, I will. Believe me. I am a good as Mr. Postman.” I said with a smile.
“Thanks a lot for your help.”
“No Problem.”
In the afternoon, I met Onew in the volleyball court. He was smilling when I approached him.
“Iwan . . . . .”, I called.
“Yes, what wrong ?” he came to me with a smile.
“Here is a letter for you,” I said while handing it to him.
“Who is it from?” Onew requested .
“Please read it yourself,” I said.
“Well, is it from your close friend?”
“Right,” I replied shortly.
Iwan was smilling when he looked at me. I was a bit annoyed by his smile.
A week had passed when Rhavida came to me and asked about her letter.
“How about the letter ?” I wonder why he hasn’t answered it yet.”
“I’m afraid I don’t know. I haven’t met him for a week . But I promise that I will ask about it as soon as I meet him.”
“Don’t forget it, Ietha “.
One evening Onew dropped by my house to return a book which he borrowed a few days before.
“Onew , have you answered Rhavida’s letter I gave you a few days ago?”
“Sorry, . . . . . I have had no time to write it. I’d rather say . . . . I don’t love her, but I do love someone else,” he replied.
“May I know everthing soon. Sorry . . . . I must be off now. Give my best regards to your parents. See you tomorrow.”
“Yes, I will se you.”
When I was studying that evening, I found a letter in the book which Onew returned. I was really very surprised when I read it . . . . . . . . . Oh my God! What should I do? Do like him ? maybe, but how about Rhavida ? she is my classmate and my good friend. It hurts to know this. Oh , no . . . . . I will not do it. And tomorrow I will till him. I must find time to say it. Onew . . I don’t mean to hurt you . I can’t love you. Please don’t hate me. Let’s be friends till the end of time, but don’t love me.
I can’t do that , you know. Oh, god, help me explain it to him. I really don’t know what I will do if I meet Rhavida tomorrow …………………………………

~ The end ~
ANDI NURUL HAQQ
XI-IPA-A